Penning down my worries

I'm having insomnia from a panick attack.

I succumbed to peer pressure and agreed on a trip to Seoul despite my financial status.

I'm unemployed and the travelling dates make it harder to find an employer.

And I desperately need of an income because after this trip, I'd have to declare bankrupt and I'm a person who needs financial security very badly.

What's worse is I can't find someone to confide in because I don't wanna hear rational solutions. I know what's the right thing to do, it's what I want to do that matters.

This is what has kept me awake. And also possibly because I'm still finding reasons to procrastinate while observing the rising cost of air tickets.

I thought writing this down will ease my mind off it... apparently it hasn't.

Back to rolling on bed worrying.

I could be condemned for saying this

Which is why I'm choosing to say it here.

If G-Dragon was an American woman doing what he's doing on stage now, he'll very likely be in the same category as Ke$ha and Miley Cyrus right now.

Nonetheless, a very talented young man. I can only hope it's all an act for a good show.

Appa Odiga

This is currently my most enjoyable TV ever. The boys minguk, joon, hoo & junsu are such lovable kids.

I hope they'd grow up and form a boyband called A.O.D.G.

Junsu, the magnae, is 7 years old. Looking at how recent boyband magnaes debut at a tender age of 15 years old, I have to wait 8 more years for this boyband to debut.

They work perfectly as a team, filling in each other's shortfalls and each having different traits and strengths.

Looking at their appa's careers, there shouldn't be a problem nurturing good idol actors, mc and songwriter in this boyband.

It'll be so much fun and daebak producing this boys!

Hey, I can also dream right?

Mid-autumn Pig Out

My family eats very well on a normal day. It gets better during festivals.

This mid-autumn I'm stuffed to the brim. There's no chance to eat light at all.

Tonight we'll be having homemade teppenyaki at the porch with our steamboat leftovers from Thursday's dinner.

Steamboat at our house is always a carnivorous affair.

Come to think of it, all meals with this family is a carnivorous affair.

Yesterday's dinner menu was old-school hainanese chicken rice and dessert at middle road. Not to forget my Aussie style brunch (booze OD) with some friends.

To say I eat too well is an understatement.

Jinxed Hands

So my mother broke the PC.

I guess this is how parents felt about destructive children. Except the tables have turned and the mother is the butterfingers.

There'll always be a computer emergency whenever she's using it.

It has been running well for the longest time and now it won't turn on.

Sigh.

Im still figuring out

So Tasty is joining the upcoming smtown Beijing. I've mixed feelings about this.

Tasty is a newbie. Perhaps newer than Exo (didn't check their debut date). They don't have a considerable fan base and are now up for the possibility of attracting anti-fans. They have talents and aren't bad looking idols.

So I've established this much about Tasty.

This is what I've surmised so far of my thoughts. The twins joining smtown is like a rich family adopting a new child. Everyone deserves a second chance, but they are afterall 不是亲生的.

I like their newest title song "Mamama". So I guess I'll cheer for them if they do perform at smtown. It'll still be weird for them to huddle up with the rest of smtown for their last song.