Sheena, The Saikang Warrior

Maybe this weekend wouldn't hit rock bottom just yet.

I've been informed earlier today that I'll begin licking boots and kissing asses in 1 week's time.

And then just a couple of hours today, I've been hinted that I'll probably be treated to exquisite Japanese cuisine with a special advance order of the freshest Taro Sashimi in the next 2 days.

Maybe I can choose the option of being a refined fermented tofu served in fine dining.
YEAH! Who said only wine can age finely!
*Feels self-conscious straight after finishing the last sentence.*

Men age like wine. Women age like...

Tofu?

Probably, cos I do feel pretty fermented ever since I got back.

This place is so deserted, I feel like I'm rambling to myself. Whatever. Writing to myself seems less pitiful than talking to myself.

Life updates.
Still job hunting. Still sick of talking about it.

This weekend is a very sorrowful weekend.
Like as if my life isn't bitter enough.

Although my faith is flickering like a candle in the wind, my passion is still burning like the sun. Still, age is against my favour this weekend.

Aside from the fact that 3May is right after the weekend.... NO WAIT! BECAUSE 3May is right after the weekend, I have lost ALL my guts to publicise my fangirl(?) behaviours.
It hurts ALOT (almost suffocating) to know that one fifth of TVXQ is on the same island as I am and yet I'm too chicken to enter the battlefield.

Despite being a fan, I sincerely hope that Singaporeans will give the other twin a balanced amount of screams and support. Don't make it too obvious that they are only there for the cheese and not the twin.

Honestly, I'd care less for the twin and scream my hearts out only for the cheese, which is partly why I chose to hide stay at home.
Yea... It's an excuse, but whatever makes me happy right?

P.S. even if I don't see 22 candles, I still feel rotten. The only consolation I can give myself is that at least I'm not drying up yet, cos by then, I'll probably never be able to prove that I'm not drying up no matter how much tears I produce. No wait, I probably should be more careful whenever I cry cos it may speed up the wrinkling process.

Nonetheless, I'm still fermenting. FML.

Changmin turns 22!!

And I'm a day late. Didn't manage to get home in time to write an entry b4 midnight, but even so, it's waaaaay past midnight in Korea now.

생일 축하해 창민아!

CNY is not officially over, but I've reached the end of grace period. I'm pressured to start writing my resume and get hired.

Lately, I've been facing pressures from all sorts of people. And you'd think the life of a slacker is stress-free.

It's a known fact that Na is a commitment antagonist and overindulges in independence and freedom. She is also absolutely against long-distance and generation gaps, and I mean lightyear size gaps.
I'm tolerating all the nonsense only because it's CNY and I want everyone to enjoy themselves. I've made my stand very clear. From now on, I'll ignore all absurdity and endure until it's over, that's if it ends before I get pushed to the edge of the cliff and be forced to jump to my death in order to avoid all the craziness going on.

If only I can sleep for a week and skip the next 7 days.
GET IT!?

Happy Birthday YUNHO!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUNHO OPPA!!!

Na still feels the most comfortable fangirling TVXQ.

Na will stop her “Photo Birthday Tribute” posts since its heartbreaking to read any TVXQ related news lately.

I even forgot to post an entry on Junsu’s and Jaejoong’s birthday. But it’s alright since they are traitors.

Anyways, Na’s daddy finally bought Wii. And the Ng offsprings chipped in $$ for Band Hero. Na’s ready for home parties!!! BOYB please! I’ll charge $0 for corkage. :D

Call me! ^^

Swearing off Kpop fandom*

*With exceptions.

I’ve underestimated the growth of Kpop in Singapore. Kpop’s influence in Sg wasn’t like this 5 years ago. People laughed at Koreans, thought their music was gay. Now you can’t walk on the streets and not notice a Soshi, Hottest, VIP or ELF. Still, up till today, when Kpop fangirls roam the streets of Singapore, the number of Cassies amongst these girls are scarce, let alone finding a Shinhwa Changjo (maybe old fangirls who have Hottests and Soshis as their offsprings).

SHINee’s 4D3N adventure in Sgland has got to be an eye-opener for both the group and the management. FT Island has long realised and taken advantage of the potential market in this tiny country, JYP is informed about this market but the Dancing Gorilla has plans on bigger fishies. Finally, SM Ent sees the beam of light struggling to shine through from Sg.

This 4D3N adventure was quite a rollercoaster for Na both mentally and physically. Although thankfully, I didn’t suffer from any external bruises, Na’s heart is severely wounded and has declared “Bones too brittle for fandom”.

After much persistent and loyalty, when Kpop finally arrives in Sg, Na has gotten too old to keep up with the younglings and has thus, declared defeat.

STILL! My loyalty for Kpop remains. Being a Noona fan has 1 advantage over the youngsters; Na has more freedom and ability to spend $$ and Time. Na shall Always Keep The Faith for TVXQ, and wait it out for Jaebom’s return to 2PM. Of course, concerts are a sure thing for Na :D There’s no ticket price too $$$ for a Noona fan who has patiently waited for 5 years.

Girls go for a haircut and image change when they are broken hearted. Na probably did the same thing for her setback in Fangirling. It’s an image that Na hated when she was a girl and it’s definitely not her No.1 man’s ideal look. Still, thank goodness I have CNY as an excuse for the image change so my mom wouldn’t start questioning.

Poor SHINee (and Bobby Kim). Right after they touch down, they had to attend an award ceremony in Seoul, at least they had a Bonsang award, but so did many other bands. And Onew’s legs looked perfectly fine during the performance. He looked as springy as all the other RDD performances. Fans really do think too much.

Many sour Sgreans who didnt get to watch SHINee sing OR/AND buy an expensive lousy quality album for a priceless autograph have the international fans frowning on Sgrean fangirls. Despite belonging to the 2 categories above, I still have to say, having waited for 5 years for a Kpop band that I truly care for to arrive in Sg when I’m around really makes me a selfish fangirl. Kpop often arrive in other parts of Asia EXCEPT Sg, so there’s no surprise we’re acting alittle selfish and crazy.

Fly more bands over at closer frequency and we’ll soon settle down like other parts of Asia. FT Island is a perfect example. I heard because of SHINee’s arrival, the fans in FT’s events are watching and screaming more comfortably without much competition.

Lastly, SM Ent is really getting on Na’s nerves.

1. Yunho introduced himself as JUNG Yunho and not UKNOW Yunho on his latest Evisu Photoshoot for Elle mag. DAMMIT!

2. WIth only 9 members left in their ceremony appearances, Super Junior should change their name to Super Shi Dae and introduce themselves to be rookies aiming to become like SNSD Unnies.

3. SM should get SHOT for making Super ShiDae perform Super Girl now that SJ-M is in a hiatus due to Hankyung’s lawsuit.

4. SM is dodging all the artistes who sued them and avoiding the solution of the problem by covering up with Super ShiDae performing and introducing Yunho like a solo artiste. I BET SM has already made future solo plans for Yunho and Changmin.

URGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!

Show Flat Only

This is just a specimen, "showroom" of Na's Haven's next concept.

It's been a tough struggle to include 2PM in the design, but now that Na's candle of faith is losing strength, it's a very sad decision made.

Okays! UPDATES!!

• Na's back for 3 weeks :( SG SUCKS!!
• If only Na has stayed in Brissy for 2 more weeks :( :( :(
• If only Na has considered Vancouver as a choice for immediate pursue of a Masters Degree.
• Na has YET to unpack her luggagesss. The mess is getting on her mother's nerves. Her mother is getting on her nerves.
  
• Na wishes to have never returned.
• Na occassionally gets paranoid about the amount of download quota she has left.
• Na constantly forgets that shops closes at 9pm.
• Na is not used to travelling w/o bus, train & ferry timetables.
• Na almost looked into a bus uncle's eyes and greeted him.
• Na misses her room in Unit 5.
• Na misses her bed and pillows in Unit 5.
• Na misses her housemates in Unit 5.
• Na misses her life in Brissy.
• SG Sucks. Reality Sucks. Life Sucks.

Now let me pretend to be an emo teenager for a while. I promise to bounce back as soon as I find a new degree and country to chase after.

Vancouver?
Seattle?
LA?
Tokyo?
Seoul?
or should I really go Indonesia and study Law just to escape from this place?