How many do you have?
I have Four.
The one I wear most is the one I grew up in. It's only worn at home, in front of people I love the most.
Undeniably the most comfortable mask out of the three, because there isn't any. I am myself, the side of me no one other than my family has ever seen. I doubt they know this, but I am different in the other world, the world where people are unrelated by blood, connected only by a delicate word called "Friendship".
That's right, Friendship created my two new faces. One I've learnt to get used to, and another I'm still exploring with caution.
It has been 6 and a half years and only 2 years ago then I've learnt to live with it. What took so long, you may ask. I guess it was the term "Growing Up" that obstructed developments of the invisible mask.
Looking back, I saw the makings of myself and how I blended into the lives of others. What struck me the most was one conversation I had with one of the 'mask makers'. She made me realise I AM part of their lives, embedded and irreplaceable. At that moment, I like how that feels, indescribable and I like it. This happened less than a month ago. (:
The Third face isn't new to me anymore. I first wore it 6 and a half years ago when I entered a whole new environment, leaving my little associates behind.
I was alone, literally.
Since then, it's a mask I can't leave home without. Sometimes I wonder, why can't I just shred all the faces and just use one? This mask answers the question.
The reason:
I read from somewhere, saying that Humans are Good by Nature.
I say:
Bullshit.
Consequently, Face Three grew to become street smart. It changes with the environment, It changes with it's 'mask makers'.
The Fourth Face is a secret. The mask only I've seen. Nobody will ever know of it's existence, but nobody wants to know anyway.
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I just learn a few moments ago, that the plane ride is at 7 in the morning. We have to leave the house at 5am, which means I need to get up by 4am to get prepared.
Thank you very much mummy *Gives sarcastic face*, 4am is the time I go to bed nowadays.
And guess what?? I am not packed yet. None, Zero, Nothing.
I realise that the older I get, the more last minute I become.
Or is it because I've become so experienced that packing up a luggage is no big deal anymore.
You're scoffing because I used the word experience, and you think I'm bragging.
Oh please, with the amount I'm traveling this hols, I'll see how much longer you can hold that sneer.
As usual, back to TVXQ. Start cheering 'friends', there's no TVXQ in Vietnam. It's even more rare to find than in Singapore.
Btw, I found a Third Dong Bang friend. Another to add to the list. She's no big deal, because she not a hard core fan, but she does have a few of their MVs and songs. Her fav member is Micky Yoochun (Hoorays!!). I'll elaborate further when I get back.
Bon Voyage!! To myself ((:
Thank you very much mummy *Gives sarcastic face*, 4am is the time I go to bed nowadays.
And guess what?? I am not packed yet. None, Zero, Nothing.
I realise that the older I get, the more last minute I become.
Or is it because I've become so experienced that packing up a luggage is no big deal anymore.
You're scoffing because I used the word experience, and you think I'm bragging.
Oh please, with the amount I'm traveling this hols, I'll see how much longer you can hold that sneer.
As usual, back to TVXQ. Start cheering 'friends', there's no TVXQ in Vietnam. It's even more rare to find than in Singapore.
Btw, I found a Third Dong Bang friend. Another to add to the list. She's no big deal, because she not a hard core fan, but she does have a few of their MVs and songs. Her fav member is Micky Yoochun (Hoorays!!). I'll elaborate further when I get back.
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To my Dong Bang friends:
The forum I've been active in is currently open for all. As in no passwords, not protected, no min. post count, Free Access to All members to All Forums, including the Videos for download and Pictures Forum.
The link is on the left panel of Na's Haven, under The Int. TVfXQ 'Fanclub', or otherwise known as TVfXQForever Forum.
Go visit now! From what I know, it won't be open for long, so Hurry before it closes! The mods might close it if there's any abusing, which I'm quite sure will happen. Hurry Hurry!!
The forum I've been active in is currently open for all. As in no passwords, not protected, no min. post count, Free Access to All members to All Forums, including the Videos for download and Pictures Forum.
The link is on the left panel of Na's Haven, under The Int. TVfXQ 'Fanclub', or otherwise known as TVfXQForever Forum.
Go visit now! From what I know, it won't be open for long, so Hurry before it closes! The mods might close it if there's any abusing, which I'm quite sure will happen. Hurry Hurry!!
Bon Voyage!! To myself ((:
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